Naturally, in my response I often send to students to let them know Iâ€™ve received their emails, I wrote, â€œGot it. Sounds promising.â€
Because, you know.
With my responsibilities this year coordinating the writing lab at our school, Iâ€™ve spent a good deal of my time working with seniors on their college application essays. Some of the topics colleges want students to expound on can be pretty bizarre, like â€œTo tweet or not to tweet,â€ â€œHow do you feel about Wednesdays?â€ and â€œYou have 150 words. Take a risk.â€
Often, however, the most challenging essay is the personal statement. Students struggle with how to define themselves, and often resort to writing their resume in paragraph format rather than focusing on something about themselves not included on other parts of the application. They donâ€™t know how to make themselves stand out, or how to tell about an experience that encapsulates who they are. In their defense, itâ€™s often because theyâ€™ve never tried to do it.
Last fall, one particular student came to me for help with her personal statement. She was bright, articulate, and beautiful, so at this point in life, the world was her oyster. But as I sat reading her well-written draft, I kept thinking, â€œAlmost everything is fine about this. Technically, it only needs minor alterations. So whatâ€™s bothering me about it?â€
As we began to discuss it, I realized what it was.
Her essay was fine; it was everything youâ€™d expect it to be. She had all the things going for her that youâ€™d want to have going for you, and she wrote with intelligence and clarity.
But it was off.
Not because it was bad, because it wasnâ€™t. It was good.
It was off because of her. It was off because she is better than her essay. She is, simply put, better than her first draft.
Of writing, Hemingway reportedly said, â€œThere is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.â€
I wonâ€™t even tell you what he said about first drafts.
But the truth is that thereâ€™s a reason for the bleeding. Because, after all the hemorrhaging ends, when we wipe away the mess, sometimes, thereâ€™s something there that stuns even ourselves.
Something in our final drafts stuns us, but not because a hundred drafts have culminated in something better than or brighter than us.
It stuns us because it is us.
We just never knew it, until we put to words and wrestled words and cursed words and erased words and stared at the space where words once were until we told ourselves weâ€™d never write words again, that these final drafts are us.
So, we could settle for our first drafts, and it might be just fine. But imagine never getting a chance to see our final ones.
This draft to be continuedâ€¦